It's June, in case you were not already aware and I know that usually at the beginning of the month, I post a video, but due to technical difficulties and the fact that I literally CAN'T, I'm just going to have to settle for a post! It is quite refreshing to be typing and not having to edit a video at the beginning of the month. I am a blogger, not a vlogger (youtuber), after all.
Sooo first and foremost, I freaking graduated from college which was I guess kind of a big deal. I didn't feel super hype because I mentioned in an earlier post, I am returning to school in the Fall for my Master's so it doesn't really feel like I have left school forever you know?
Anyways, I really have learned a lot throughout May, especially closer to the end of the month. The first thing I noticed is that my priorities are just not in order. Funny enough, I came to this conclusion by way of my blog. I guess this whole thing is therapeutic. I have recently been obsessing over making my blog "blow" also known as making it known and super successful. Funny enough, I was not necessarily taking steps to put my blog out there, yet I was obsessing over the statistics or metrics of my blog.Now I'm not going to act like I didn't start this blog with the expectation that it would be successful, of course not. No one starts a project and hopes that it doesn't become popular. My desire is for this blog to be bigger than I can imagine and to open doors not just for me, but also for my readers and the communities I am apart of.
But seriously though, my own was too much. I was taking it way too far though. I was doing the most. The upmost. I would literally check the metrics EVERY HOUR, guys. It was getting too much and I realized that worrying about numbers was beginning to make me lose interest in my blog. I had to refocus and get my priorities in check.
I had to go back to why I started this blog. I started this blog in order to use it as a documentation of my journey, specifically my journey to actually being healthy. Like truly healthy. After disconnecting a little bit, I'm back like I never left.
2016 so far has definitely been the year that I've realized that there are a lot of things about me and my choices that I am just going to have to let go of in order to thrive in the next chapter of my life. At this point, I'm looking ahead to my purpose here on earth and I really have got to start figuring that out. I'm not going to be able to do that if I am continually getting distracted by things such as envy, holding grudges, judgment, anger and most importantly: FEAR.
Additionally I have been trying to encourage myself to stop obsessing over my shortcomings. I am very much a planner. I plan what I want to do everyday or what I want to do every month and when I don't do what I planned, it's damn near catastrophic for me. I start to talk myself down and feel like a failure .I'm learning more and more that the standards I hold for myself and those around me are way too idealistic and that is why I am almost always left disappointed. As they say, the best way to make God laugh is by telling Him your plans and so far I have a feeling God has been laughing it up at my expense!
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What's going on in June?
This month is all about hair, one of billions of things that I love talking about! Next week, I am going to be doing something very um, interesting. I am going to attempt to document my "Wash Day" routine all through pictures and text. The following week, I will be discussing the whole Growth vs. Health dichotomy that exists. I'm also going to be talking about hair coloring and presenting my take on whether you are truly natural if you color your hair (yes ya'll this argument exists).
I am so excited to get June started and I would love to hear what you guys are looking forward to in June and beyond. Let me know!
As always, thanks for reading, beautiful people.