Stepping Outside Of Your Comfort Zone
So guys, I did a thing. I relocated to Nigeria. (Yes in this Buhari economy). It has always been my dream to move to Nigeria, but…not like this. The plan was to turn 25, be a millionaire (or close) and then open a hospital that would make me even more millions. Mind you, that was my plan 4 years ago. This time last year, I still wanted to wait until 25, but I was confused about what exactly I wanted to do. Even though I had a feeling that I would be living here by now, I still pushed it out of my head. I had convinced myself that 25 was the magic number. I would be established, I would be organized, I would be blah. blah. BLAH. Guys, the truth is this: I was afraid. I talked myself out of this move and taking this leap, because I was terrified. As I have told you guys before, I am very, um particular about things. I don't do well with not knowing, I don't do “exploring” and stepping out of my comfort zone. What if I get hurt? What if I get embarrassed? What if someone plays me? Sadly, even within my bubble of safety, I still was experiencing all of the things I feared and more, I just had more control.
So far, there have been extreme highs and extreme lows. There has never been a time where I have felt more vulnerable. By vulnerable, I mean so dependent on so any people. Yes I have stayed in Nigeria for an extended period of time before, but not with the intention of relocating. There have been times where I literally started to pack my stuff and wanted totell my parents that I was ready to come back. From not having a place that I can completely call my own, to not knowing where anything is, things have been quite interesting to say the least. This experience has taught me a lot of things from the fact that I am extremely privileged to the importance of communication.
Thingsdefinitelyaren't going as planned,nonetheless, I still feel like I’m living my dream. I stepped out of my comfort zone in a big way, I didn't take baby steps, I ran fully into it and I’m proud of myself. I almost let my fear keep me in a box; this time last year (actually even two months ago) I was working where I didn't want to work, having mental breakdowns once a week because I felt like a failure.
The journey still continues, but I just wanted to update you guys and also encourage you to step out of your comfort zone. If a disorganized type A woman like me can do it, anyone can. Trust me.
Anyways guys, since I’ll be here for a while, I’ve decided to vlog bits and pieces of my journey and share what: 1.) I Feel comfortable with and 2.) I think will benefit all of us in some way. Stay tuned (and please pray that Vlog #3 will be uploaded some time this year) .
As always, thanks for reading.