Why Comparison SUCKS
So this one has been very difficult to get to for a couple of reasons: 1.) I didn’t know how to talk about it 2.) I haven't had the time to sit and write 3.)I’m still working through it.
Listen, I’ve been having a lot of issues over the past few weeks, primarily internal issues. Guys, I’ve been tired, like really, really, tired. Fed up with my life and the direction it has been going. I’ve also been fed up with the things about myself that need work, but have been overlooked because it’s “too much”.
Okay, so now that I have that off my chest, I really need to tell you about comparison and how it will literally ruin your life. Before we get to my lessons, let’s get right into story time.
A few weeks ago, I was at a worker’s meeting at church and we were all praying, with our eyes closed, (obviously) and all of a sudden, I hear my Pastor say “Eyek”, at first I thought it was God and I was like “what the hell”, but then my Pastor said it again and I realized that it was him. So of course I looked up and he starts telling me about a revelation he had (in front of everyone!). He said many things that were true, but hit me where it hurt, but something really stood out to me. His exact words were “I see you ontrain thats just going in circles, with no end point”. I was actually floored (and a little terrified) because I just wasn’t expecting it. It didn't take much for me to know exactly what he was talking about.
He was talking about my life decisions, career paths, etc and it also didn’t take long for me to realize why I couldn't just stay in one place, or most importantly, be satisfied in that one place.
Social media is one of the most beautiful and horrible things ever and as much as there are amazing things that sprout: relationships, opportunities, and so many other things that can come from it, there is also a whole lot of trash out there. As you may or may not know, I have been blogging and doing YouTube for a little over a year and although I should be so grateful that everything that I have achieved and received by way of it, it’s still never good enough. I scroll through my feed and I see people who started after me, or who are less “genuine’ than I am making it big and I say to myself things like “what are you doing wrong?” or “are you sure you want to keep doing this?” I struggle with being happy for them, and I struggle with staying true to myself when I see things like that.
Let’s take it even deeper, what about my relationship with God? What if I told you that the only time I feel the urge of having an authentic relationship with God is when I see someone post a bible verse, or give a testimony, etc. Even that is a competition.
Let’s not talk about relationships, I can’t tell you how many times I scroll through IG and after aww-ing at five or six videos and pics of couples, saying out loud “meanwhile, all I can get is ______”.
Comparison has very few benefits, and very rarely are the benefits in the realm of anything outside than deciding which slice of cake to choose or size of meat to take out of the pot of stew. (Yes I went there)
Comparison whether we like it or not is a negative spirit, here are a few things that I have experienced and seen comparison do.
1.) Comparison takes the soul out of everything
I lose focus of why I started this whole journey and I get caught up in the numbers and other things that shouldn't matter and that’s usually when my content it is subpar. Yes I want to produce content that you all want to see and read, but if it’s not coming from an authentic place, then what’s the point?
2.) Comparison is a distraction
When you’re constantly looking over at what other people are doing, you’re not going to be able to focus on what you’ve been called to do.
3.) Comparison hurts more than it helps
Quite frankly, I’m fed up with it. it’s weighing me down and I’m just not having it anymore. Yeah I’m venting to you, but I also want you to think about comparison and how it has affected your life. Can we hold each other accountable so that we can kill this crap by New Years day? Yeah? Okay cool.
Thanks for reading. Love you. Bye.